Rickie Lee Jones
Writing Some Heroes

"The only thing that makes life possible is permanent, intolerant uncertainty: not knowing what comes next. If you see a whole thing - it seems that it's always beautiful. Planets, lives.... But close up a world's all dirt and rocks. And day to day, life's a hard job, you get tired, you lose the pattern. Love doesn't just sit there like a stone; it has to be made, like bread, remade all the time, made new. What sane person could live in this world and not be crazy?"
- URSULA Le GUIN

 

Sometimes I think about heroes, I guess that's the name for them, famous people we know but forget about, people who've made a difference in our lives that is so profound that we take it for granted. I was thinking about Shirley Temple, as I have a few times, and I wanted to tell her how much I have always admired her. Her movies (there's one on right now - the bachelor and the bobby soxer) meant so much to me when I was little, and when I watch them now, I am taken up in the strands of some long ago, that is, the long ago is with me still, and I can feel it here sometimes when I watch an old Shirley Temple movie. I worry about her, wondering how her life has gone, hoping it was something like the life one of her characters might have had - a good daddy, a challenge met, somebody to dance down the hall with, animal crackers in her soup. I hope those things came to her, and that she was kind, and I am glad she is still with us, and hope one day she takes a look at this little paragraph of my thanks.
 

My mother grew up in an orphanage in those years that little Shirley was making movies. It's amazing how we are all connected, and that maybe somehow, because Shirley was all right somewhere, my little Bettye, my mom, survived that terrible orphanage.
 

Now I have my own daughter watch her movies (though she doesn't like black and white) and she loves Shirley, too. Her bravery and love of the camera was inspiring, and she was a mighty good dancer and singer at that. Here's to you, Shirley.
 

I also think of Katherine Hepburn, and of the writer Ursula Le Guin, and wish to send them my deepest regards for their work. To Katherine, who kept everything real and down to earth, and made herself and her characters radiant for all time. I keep a picture of her in me, and sometimes when I need to I am reminded of the good lives people have led, like Katherine Hepburn, and then I try to walk that walk.
 

And to Ursula, who wrote a novel that I keep with me still, that took me through such hard transitions, that seemed to be so much about my own journey. We never know who we are really talking to, do we? So thank you for the Earthsea books. I hope there will be more.

RICKIE LEE JONES
May, 2000

 
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